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Sunday, March 28, 2004

i'ld rather not do this anymore.

ha. like my day just can't get any worse. blah. been a totally terrible day today. sigh* i don't know what to say. or do anymore yeah. i mean. there are certain things you can't live in denial with. so what's the point of feigning ignorance? can't you just go straight to the point? its just a simple yes/no answer after all. blah. forget it.

i swear i never felt such emptiness in me since some time ago. and getting that sorta feeling back sucks big time. major. but the sad case is. there's nothing i can do?.. so i guess.. i'll just have to live with it don't i? sigh* i wasn't really in the mood today. totally distracted during service. ha. i didn't really sing too. ha. sigh* but yeah. the sermon was kinda interesting. still. the emptiness continued settling in.and yeah. didn't take me long before i started getting depressed and all. sighs*

certain.. emotions were highlighted today. that got me pretty much irritated? but i kept it in.. sometimes we don't have to let the whole world know bout how we feel? that's what i realised. yeah. cause we'll never know how exactly the other party would feel after hearing your stuffs. sigh* anyhows. i finally KNOW what i was I DUNNO-ing about. and that sucks. i'm kinda. trying. not. to...... so yeah. period. end of topic. i shall not talk much about it. SIGH.

oh wells. sigh* i thought of tons to say. but i guess i should. it would firstly. make things too obvious. secondly. sound TOO sadistic. thirdly. seem to be pointing at some only? and lastly. leak my secret out. haha. so i guess it'll be out at my private that only a few know of. of maybe. it's just gonna be in my written one. sigh* i can't believe it. eeks. why must this happen again and why now of all times? sigh* fate works in mysterious ways. blah. nvm.

and this is for YOU. enjoy. HA.

"Harder To Breathe"

How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle

You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to fuckin' tread the ground that I'm walking on

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to what I've said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control

Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
is there anyone out there cuz its gettin harder and harder to breathe

choking up inside.

;elysium.
10:02:00 PM